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Kakafukaka

Chapter 31

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Summary

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Kakafukaka chapter 31

I can't turn back. I don't want to turn back.

Ishida Takumi

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Where did I go wrong?

What did I do wrong?

*karara...* (door slides open)

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Oh, Tomoya

morning

......Morning

Thanks for

Are you going to have breakfast?

I'm done already, but if you're going to eat, I will get it ready!

the food

*kata* (gets up from chair)

......Where's Terada-san?

Ahh, okay then...

thanks

Said she didn't take a bath last night.

Ahh, for some reason, she went into the bath earlier.

But it's okay! She made rolled omelettes! That's Terada-san for you, huh.

Hmmm

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----I fully understand

*pata pata pata* (sound of footsteps)

----Oh?

Tomoya, are you also on your way out now?

what I'm doing wrong.

Let's walk together then!!

......He went out

Ah, yeah.

it seems.

'kay

Say, did you know? Lately, in this area...

*creak, patan* (door opens and closes)

I'll take care of dinner preparation and other chores

...Setting aside the mistake as it is,

while I can then...

today, I continue to avoid Hongyou.

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~The days of avoiding Hongyou~

*Putting my ears to the wall of his room......

*Evacuate immediately if I hear any sound

*...clatter*

*Basically eat my meals in my room

I'm going to the bathroom for a minute.

*startled*

okay

----Although I say that, well

even when I carelessly happen to bump into him

Ah

Oh shoot

...welcome home.

...Thanks

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----That's all.

*turns to leave*

But that's

to the bathroom probably

...that's what happens.

as I thought

and rough.

really terrible

...Nevertheless,

I understand

I cannot keep up the current state of things......

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......Should I say it...?

"Let's stop dating"......

Uh, but

I don't think saying that will

return things to the way they were before, anyway......

.........That aside,

that, in itself,

would confirm a lot of things, I think.

if they do return to the way they were,

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It's really rough.

......So

then

what should I do......?

Can't fall back

can't move forward.

Oppressive, like I'm suffocating.

......This must be what it feels like

to be stuck in mud.

----Somehow,

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for the past few days, you've been looking like a zombie.

Are you okay, Terada-san?

Hase-san...

And you haven't been coming out to the living room all that much either, it seems.

----Ah, umm...

I've heard from Akari.

Looks like you've started going out with Tomo.

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----Ah ......

----Honestly,

it's kinda tough

isn't it?

What......

Well, it is Tomo we're talking about, so.

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.........Uh

than

tough.........

rather

.........Ahhh

yeah

Anyway

let's go out for dinner today.

You always make the food.

Uh

somewhere close and quick

Huh?

And it's good to eat out once in a while too.

Ahh, speaking of, I heard you went drinking with Akari after going to the public bath house a while ago. How about that place?

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Well, anyway I'll ask Akari too.

----Uh, but umm

......Y-You're inviting...... Akari-san too?

Huh, of course.

It's just, Akari will kill me if I take dinner away from her alone.

That's true......

----Ahh, see?

*pipon* (message alert)

Going to a pub with Terada-san, want to come?

*pipon*

What about Hongyou......? Let's just count him in too......

What's with that! Sounds nice!

Akari's taking the bait.

*pipon*

She really is taking the bait.

Salt, you say...

Just let Tomo lick salt or something.

It's rare for you to go drinking.

So,

T/N: lol

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It would be good if he realizes how lucky it is to have someone prepare meals.

Anyway, Terada-san, with the way you are now,

you're probably better off stepping out for a bit today.

he's being

T/N: can't see these two kanji, something about Akari heading somewhere.

although I also still have work to do today~~

It kind of

......feels like

really considerate.

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...I feel bad.

Even though lately ......some pretty awkward stuff happened...

I'm ashamed

.........but

I feel happy.

----So

*Thunk*

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where on earth

Terada-san, you're drinking too fast.

did I go wrong...?

calm down

That aside, contrarily!

What was the correct way to go about it, I have no idea......!

Well

rather than where I went wrong,

it was weird from the get-go, to begin with.

Anyway, Akari sure is late.

Sleeping in the same bed like some kind of erection device. What's with that.

*pipon* (message alert)

Oh, is she here?

Is it from Akari-san? What does it say?

...When you say it like that......

but seriously, please stop

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More work to correct came in suddenly-

......Looks like she's running late.

I'm sorry but I'll be late.

she also seemed really uninterested, and only said, "oh yeah? I see".

Oh

......Come to think of it,

......Is it so insignificant......?

"Oh yeah?"

when I told Akari-san I started going out with Hongyou,

"I see."

Ahhh

......Well, to put it bluntly,

Tomo's always been like that with his past girlfriends too.

What...?

They'd be like, "not a single thing has changed compared to before we started dating",

"I don't think he loves me" etc.

"he won't do anything for me",

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Akari has seen it all, you see.

Tomoya and I are at a level where

----I've said so before, haven't I,

the behavior called "dating" has no value.

She thinks it doesn't have the slightest meaning or value.

"it's a waste of time to go after Tomo".

He probably doesn't have the awareness like "I'm her boyfriend", "we're dating, so I should do something for her."

.........Ahh...

......For some reason, I

um

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...I've been thinking this a lot lately,

"Hongyou and I have started dating, but it's completely different from what I thought."

"It's not supposed to be like this."

"But then, what is it supposed to be like?"

----"first, I want him to fall in love with me"

"What did I want it to be?"

"I want him to be in love with me as much as I'm in love with him, or more."

When I think about it,

And I wonder,

does it mean, on top of that, I want him to express his love to my satisfaction......?

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----But

I get confused about everything......

that feels like something really selfish

......somehow, more and more

......Not really. I think those thoughts themselves

are quite normal though.

under whatever pretext, it's basically egoistical, if said plainly.

...And it's only natural to be selfish.

......Normal...

To want something from another person

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Although it will be a problem if one forces their wishes on the other person one-sidedly.

...Well, if two people can reach some sort of harmony and balance, then it's fine, don't you think?

Not that I understand it all that well though.

......I feel like,

Hase-san is so mature...

Haha, what's with that?

......I see. .........Harmony and balance......

----Ah, but,

to hope for something from Hongyou and such is, utterly......

Ahh, right? Seriously can't figure out what Tomo's thinking.

Ah, even you, Hase-san?

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......But

well

what he's thinking, what he's hoping for, is impossible to figure out,

that in itself is part of Tomo's charm... ...Actually, it makes him interesting too......

And, you know, it makes you happy having such a guy open up to you and be attracted to you, no?

...Like there's a feeling of being special.

Ah, yes! ...But that's like, kind of cr@ss...

......Oh?

*---gasps*

----Ah, I-I'm sorry......

Hm? For what?

......Uh, I mean,

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...To have you listen to me talk about this stuff, is sort of......

Ah--- It's okay, since I also have my own ulterior motive.

......What!?

*startled*

You know. Doesn't it happen a lot?

Ah-- no, not like that.

Gaining someone's trust while they consult with you about troubles in their love life......

That's my objective today.

......Hase-san, are you drunk too?

Huh? No, I don't get drunk on sake anyway.

No, you are drunk, I'm sure!

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It's my first time drinking this.

............This highball

It's not bad, goes down easy.

......Are you serious?

the common people's friend

...Now that you mention it, you have been gulping it down one after another since earlier......

T/N: Meaning, it's a cheap drink, probably? and since Hase is from a rich family...

*pipon*

(recommended by Terada-san)

Oh, Akari's finally here?

I'm so sorry. Work just won't end.

Ah, Akari-san?

I don't think I can go for today...!!

Is it from Akari-san? Is she almost here?

Does she want us to order something for her?

......Uh

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She says she probably can't come today.

she asks us to get her the salt and butter fried noodles with spam and shimeji mushrooms......

Also,

Huh?

...Ahh......

Thank you for dining with us---

(cue to call it a night)

Thank you for treating me to dinner!

You're welcome.

......Thank you.

I'm sorry to let you pay this time too.

Ahh, don't worry about it.

It was dirt cheap, and Terada-san is poor anyway!

I am poor though...

......You're still drunk, aren't you, Hase-san.

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----And

......thank you

really

for everything, today.

Ahh......

come to think of it,

I guess I... forgot to say this

or should I say, I didn't say it clearly.

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I'm

in love with you.

......So, if possible,

I honestly hope I could marry you.

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......To be honest,

dating and such, is also......

Whoa......

Whoa

----Hearing it so clearly

and in a straight forward way

......is way more astounding

than I would expect......

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----Wait,

gross!

ahhh.........

*jumps*

...Really, what am I saying

in this kind of place

Haha, gross.

and when I'm drunk, no less.

......This isn't good.

I get really gross.

When I'm with Terada-san,

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.........But

.........I don't hate it.

The gross Hase-san.

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......Don't call people gross.

Whaaa

Ah......

----Anyway, let's call it a night

and hurry back home......

*staggers*

Whoa!

*turns away*

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......A-Are you okay?

......Sorry...

I'm not as steady on my feet as I thought.

Like I said, you're drunk.

Anyway, you can lean on me...

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----Strange

and

so natural......

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